I've been procrastinating on the New Mexico Magazine photo contest submission for awhile now, and apparently there are a few good reasons: some psychologists argue my inner perfectionist is the culprit. Others say it's my impulse- wow, I'm pretty sure I suffer from both of those afflictions. While I've been known to blame my inability to stick to tasks on imaginary ADD, the truth is this: I don't have the disorder; it's just that my BRAIN suffers from dis-order!
I keep thinking I'll have time 'tomorrow' or 'next week'. And before you know it, the deadline arrives and I'm running around trying to get everything done. That inevitably never works out either; something goes awry, adding to my stress level AND my annoyance at not getting things done sooner. I'm only fooling myself- I don't put things off because I'll have more time later. I believe I subsconsciously do it knowing that rushing through a task will not only lead me to stray from perfection to complete it, thereby allowing me to blame myself because I didn't do something perfectly. How's that for sick and twisted?!
"Well, if I know the problem, why can't I correct it?' you may ask. I think it may all revolve around my apparent fear of success. What if I actually won a contest? I might place impossible expectations on myself (because I don't already do that), or cause my ego to inflate to the size of the Goodyear blimp (is that thing still operable?), maybe even lose sleep contemplating my newfound fame...oh, the horror.
So, I have another contest deadline at the end of this month (the 29th to be exact). Let's see if I can learn my lesson and bite the bullet EARLY (check out the Prevention Magazine article that seemed to be written for me this month) http://www.prevention.com/tips/health/pump-your-will-power/3-dont-procrastinate .
I keep thinking I'll have time 'tomorrow' or 'next week'. And before you know it, the deadline arrives and I'm running around trying to get everything done. That inevitably never works out either; something goes awry, adding to my stress level AND my annoyance at not getting things done sooner. I'm only fooling myself- I don't put things off because I'll have more time later. I believe I subsconsciously do it knowing that rushing through a task will not only lead me to stray from perfection to complete it, thereby allowing me to blame myself because I didn't do something perfectly. How's that for sick and twisted?!
"Well, if I know the problem, why can't I correct it?' you may ask. I think it may all revolve around my apparent fear of success. What if I actually won a contest? I might place impossible expectations on myself (because I don't already do that), or cause my ego to inflate to the size of the Goodyear blimp (is that thing still operable?), maybe even lose sleep contemplating my newfound fame...oh, the horror.
So, I have another contest deadline at the end of this month (the 29th to be exact). Let's see if I can learn my lesson and bite the bullet EARLY (check out the Prevention Magazine article that seemed to be written for me this month) http://www.prevention.com/tips/health/pump-your-will-power/3-dont-procrastinate .
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| "Friends" |
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| "Gone But Not Forgotten" |
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| "Isolation" |
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| "Tres Hermanas" |
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